On December 8, 2013, Sunday, God revealed His prosperous Words to me. He really wants me to realize things that I’m confused about.
Yesterday before going to work, I attended the 9AM Church service at Victory U-Belt. The topic for their episode is entitled, JUST IN TIME. Sobrang slap on the face when Pastor Tito was preaching about it yesterday. Grabe, sobra yung feeling ko yesterday was very lutang lang. Ptr Tito kept on saying that God’s time is really on time. God’s timing is very perfect. Sobrang sakto lang in my situation right now.
And then after work, I went straight to Makati to meet my mentor,Ayu Alano to teach me about Tough Love. Muntik pa nga hindi matuloy kasi she’s not feeling well daw e. Pero God is good. Sabi sakin ni Ayu na buti nalang daw natuloy. I’ve learned alot from our meeting. Our topic means showing love to someone by being tough on them. Naging tough talaga siya sakin yesternight as she counsels me. Same topic, same person, same guy, same situation pa din naman ang sinabi ko sa kanya. Sobrang hindi ko talaga alam mga sasabihin ko while she’s lecturing me. Sobrang slap on the face din e. She wants me to wake up. She wants me realize that God is fighting for my battle. She wants to clear things out na kailangan ko talagang i-surrender Kay God lahat. Sabi ko sa kanya, hindi ako maka-move on talaga. Sabi niya, “Bakit?” I answered, “Hindi ko talaga alam.”
I’ve broke Ayu’s heart kasi parang hindi ko na-absorb lahat ng mga sinabi niya. Haaayyy nahiya ako. Really. Hindi ako makapagsalita that night sa kanya. Pero she’s not mad daw. I know din naman kasi na it’s for my own good. That Tough Love conversation really striked me. As in tagus-tagusan sa puso ko. Yung reaction ko lang talaga was very lutang as well.
That conversation made me realize one thing. Guys who are NOT Godly man don’t deserve princesses of God like me. And as a princess of God, I should not be treated this way by those pig pens. By those “basura”. I am treated with respect.
Ayu is right. Kaya daw I’m not experiencing break-throughs pa kasi I’m not allowing God FULLY in my heart. I’m not allowing God to fight the battle for me. I’m still not surrendering myself to Him. Kaya this time, I’ve woke up. Kaya namin ni God to. I’m surrendering everything to God. My trust is on Him. My faith is on Him.
"Lord, My God, please forgive me. Forgive me that I always breaks Your heart. That I’ve not truly trust in You. Right now, I surrender everything to You. My heart, my body, my soul is only for You. Please let these emotions wash away. Take it. Clean it. Empty it. And make it new again. As white as a snow."
Thank You My Papsy God for teaching me. For waking me up. For the revelations. I love You!!!
So girls, if we are in the same situation right now, don’t worry too much. ma-stress lang kayo! Let God fight the battle for you. Just keep on praying. Let’s go! We can do this! With God, all things are possible. We are God’s princesses. God wants a prince for us. Not just some kind of “basuras”, but a prince, a Godly man for us who deserve us. Who deserves our love. Go go gooo!!
God’s timing is perfect. God’s promises are perfect. God is perfect.
Love love, Charm <3
And if you’re only using me to feed your fantasy YOU’RE REALLY NOT INLOVE so let me go… I MUST BE FREE.